We had our second IUI procedure today. I was again surprised with how calm I was last night and today prior to the appointment. I usually dread any kind of doctor appointment so you would think that I would be all kinds of nervous prior to a procedure such as IUI. But just like the first time, I wasn’t nervous at all. In fact, I think I was even more at ease with the whole thing this time around. Thankfully, the doctor who did the procedure is one who I have complete trust in (He did our initial appointment, testing, counseling, etc). I felt very comfortable and confident with him performing the IUI.
This time around, I felt super bloated and experienced some cramping immediately after the procedure. I made sure to take the whole day off from work and went straight to bed to lie down for a few hours.
Speaking of work. WOW, I don’t think I could care any LESS about work at this moment. I’ve become so hyperfocused on TTC that I’ve mentally and emotionally put work on the backburner. Add to the fact that I am not happy with the direction work has been taking me in the last few months and I just don’t care much about it anymore. This realization, that TTC and become a mother has become my main focus, would have taken 25-year-old me by complete surprise. I mean really. The old me busted her ass for years in order to earn two advanced degrees and be able to do what I used to love. I guess dissatisfaction at work coupled with the overwhelming feeling that I have to now fight in order to achieve what my heart desires (to become a mother) has caused a complete shift in my priorities.
Nonetheless, I’ll continue to go to work. I mean how else could I could I possibly afford IF treatment anyways. If nothing else, work will at least serve as a distraction during this dreadful 2ww.
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